Alright, so I didn't update this. I wasn't feeling up to it, so I decided to pull back on it for a while. As always, my life been revolving around work, but still, I find myself meeting my dear friends two days in a row! That is a good sign at least. It seems that I am not pulling myself away as I thought I was. But let's start from the beginning shall we?

I was suppose to meet up with Saiba on the morning of Sunday, but that failed to happen when Saiba, being the dear she is, failed to wake up after the spam call I gave her. So with that, not to mention the lack of battery for my phone and my failure to bring a charger along, pushed me to return home, where, in the end, that didn't happen. So that sort of pissed me off, and it made me not want to come down. I didn't want it to happen, I just needed to be by my own for that time. Sorry Saiba for the words I gave. I know it was wrong, I just wanted to be alone.

After my whole 'work' on Monday, it so happened that Saiba, again being the annoying dear she is, suddenly came down to have that breakfast she owed me. Yes, at the airport. Not a good idea, since I was still slightly pissed by her from the day before, not to mention the lack of sleep was getting to me. But she didn't listened, and there she was, at my workplace waiting for me. With no choice, I had to go along with her. Again, sorry for the attitude. I just was feeling both sleepy and irritable.Thankfully, she understood, and nothing happened that is permanent. However, as I went home, I failed to sleep, and the urge to go Lan-ing at Khakabo approached me. A text to two fellow players, Haziq and Kong, gave hope as Kong was willing. However, it ended with us staying at my place and just playing the PS3. It was unbelievable, that we actually had no mood to go after all.

We continued on to slack by Bedok, in which beforehand me and Kong ate at Long John Silver. I have now come to the conclusion that the food there is something I would never eat ever again. It was cool to have a friend actually come down to Seng Kang to slack with me. I rather enjoy that. We eventually made our way to the Carpark in Bedok, and there, we had another surprise with Pizza from Kong's cousin. I bought it with me to work, and it was all cool. Please note that I haven't had a decent amount of sleep since then.

Today, however, was something we planned. The plan was to go to Khakabo like finally, Haziq, Kong, me and Arsyad. That, however, was broken apart as well, me and Kong feeling lazy, Haziq would be late for work, and Arsyad had to stay home. This is the first time all of us didn't have the compelling feeling to just go Khakabo, with or without anyone else. It was a new experience. Me and Kong, well, just stayed at my place. I must note that Kong, for his part, was my wake up call. After plenty of knocking, more shouting, 18 calls and 13 messages later, I woke up to let him in my house. My bad.

And now, before my work, I met with them, and ate KFC, the first food I had for today, and that was at 4. Damn was it good. We placed ourselves near the old slacking place, 628, and there, enjoyed the view of a shop being opened. What luck! We may finally return to that place. It does hold plenty of memories. A couple of hours of quality time, we eventually found ourselves slowly departing. I went off to work, as always, and would forever be happy to see those I haven't seen for a while, namely Zakir. Thus, my part has ended, and the story for tomorrow, would be just another chapter in this blog.

Things I am glad for:
Friends that really would do anything just to make it up to me(Saiba)
Friends that would stay out of my house and keep on getting me to wake up(Kong)
Friends that keeps on saying other friends kissed his dick(Haziq)
Friends that calls himself Taiti King only to lose 4 times in a row(Arsyad)
Friends that I haven't met for a while(Zakir)

But really, I am glad for these especially:
Saiba for feeling honestly bad for not keeping the promise
and For accepting the fact I was being pissy for pissy sake.
To meet with my friends after not meeting them for so long
To actually lepak with more than five people at 628
Laughing with my friends more than ever
Going to JB in three days
And I am especially glad to have my friends. Thank you, idiots whom I shall cherish.

And there you go, my blog for three days. I hope the fools who read this would laugh and cry and just know that I am always going to enjoy being with you guys, even if I didn't have enough sleep.

| Maverick |

PS, Damn I'm sorry for the error. It is not being honestly bad, but feeling honestly bad. My mistake Saiba. Please forgive my error.

Well, honestly, this one was a doozy. Twenty four hours ago from now, I had the most irritated look ever. For the lack of sleep that day, I was actually looking forward for sleep here, at work, but that, apparently, didn't happen. Instead, with the fact I work at the basement level, I had to handle all these fucked up customers that even I couldn't bother with a smile. Oh, and by the way, one of the seniors here is really fucked up. Not even lifting a finger to help me out when the passengers was everywhere in the office. Makes me want to lash out at him, but hey, what can a lowly worker do right? The only positive that night was me getting my pay, which I was extremely happy. Didn't eat though, due to the sheer exhaustion I was feeling.

But now, after resting my body a bit, I still feel I didn't get enough sleep. Well, I didn't. My sleeping pattern is beginning to go haywire, and I fear it might be dangerous. But hopefully, nothing bad comes to it. So yes, nothing much happened to me today, and the only thing I had to bless for is today, at work, there isn't too many people.

Oh, Saiba, I'm sorry for lashing at you yesterday. Well, not really lashing, I just couldn't talk well with me being absolutely tired as well as pissed off over the whole too many customers and my senior is a fucktard. So yes, I'm sorry about not talking. Here's to hoping today would turn out alright.

So, for positives, I shall have to put this out.

Finally getting to bed after a long day of work
Cooled down enough so that I don't freaking get angry too much
Glad to see my little sister was done with her camp
And glad to see my mom laughing

Well, that's a small list, but it was a short day for me. I am going to make a commitment to go meet my little nephew soon. One can only hope he doesn't cry when I pick him up. He is my proof that I won against my brother after all. Haha. To those who are asleep, may you have a good night sleep. To those who are awake, what the hell are you doing? Get to bed! Take care.

| Maverick |

Alright, I have to admit, this would be an incredibly short one. Due to the fact of work, a very close case of annoyance, as well as sheer fatigue of staying awake for more than 24 hours, it is clear that the likelihood of me sleeping now is increasing with every minute. It is the reason why I am planning to keep this short, and very very simple.

Alright, let's get this over with. If I don't do this, I'll just forget and probably face the wrath of someone whom I rather not face. So in other words, I'm going to continue doing this until either she forgets(in which I would magically forget as well) or until the time comes when I forget(in which she as well would magically forget about it).

Okay, Day 3 of 2013. What shall I talk about.. Well, honestly, there was nothing of interest today. Due to the inability to get proper sleep yesterday, I woke up.. quite early. However, I fell asleep midday as well, that in no part was my fault. I was suppose to meet up with the rest, but it turns out, work could be a bitch to most of us here. You know, seeing work starting to consume each and every one of us, in addition to the simple fact that others like Saiba and Arsyad has started school. It is the beginning of a time where we would have less time together sadly, and I wouldn't blame anyone. It couldn't be help. Money does make the world go round sadly, and we'll have to live with that simple fact. As much as I wish I could come down to be with my friends, the likelihood of that, is well, impossible. Just the fact I work a night shift, and tend to sleep it off until well late afternoon. But it doesn't matter. I'll always strive to meet up with them, even if situation dictates it.

The only reason I failed to wake up late today was due to the fact I was trying to watch soccer. But sadly, my sleeping pattern missed it, and I ended up waking up after the match. However, I am still glad Liverpool got the win against Sunderland at home. It gave them a good start to the new year. Hopefully, their win would provide a streak in which they are known for years ago. The time where they would make Anfield a fortress. But one can only hope, no?

So, keeping up to my promise(Or rather apparent promise in which I had no clue of making), I would put up the list of positives I had today.

Being able to sleep at ease
Feeling good at work(For now)
Feel more laid back
Encountering no problems as of yet

And that should be it. Nothing much positive note today. But we'll get to it tomorrow maybe. For now, may the Force be with you. No wait no, I meant may your day be good, and so will tomorrow.

Oh and Saiba, in case you are still reading this, please be advise, it's January, not February. If you are still going to put the date, at least go Jan/Feb, not Feb/Jan. Thank you.

| Maverick |

Alright, so this is the second day of my apparent blog promise with Nusaiba. I believe I have now committed myself to an insane act by an insane girl. But this is kind of late, so I doubt this would be read by her until tomorrow. Too bad saiba. :)

Now, this would be a short one. My day started out much later than most people. Work hassled me on until 7am, which I then went home, and I reached back at 830. Messed up part was, I couldn't sleep up until 11am, leaving me to enjoy the oh so beautiful game of football within my PS3. Oh yes, I have that for my birthday last year, which would be exactly a month ago as of today. As soon as I knocked myself out by 11, I woke up at 4pm, much to my body's happiness. I rather sleep for five hours than ten honestly.

It was a waste that I failed to join my friends in a lepak session, but I believe it was a good cause. Instead, Shahidil came down to meet me here, at my block. Haven't meet him for a while, but discovering him was rather new, since there was an air about him that I couldn't phantom. Much to my surprise(and due to his secretive nature), I've found out he has found a girl! I had no idea this was the case, and I find myself in a rather.. surprised part of the world. Who would have expected the boy to grow up so fast?! But it was a rather funny experience to see him finding someone. Who knows, maybe I am next to be lucky? But this isn't about me. He slacked until a bit later, where he had to meet her to prove his apparent love. Relationships, there are a very confusing thing to go by. But I truly hope the best for him and his new girl. I would forever hate him for keeping it a secret from me. :)

Now, as per the orders of Saiba(and which I did not agree to but you knew I would do it), I shall list the good things that happened to me today. It is as followed:

Sleep
Wasn't that tired when I woke up
Quality time with my brother
Meet up of Shahidil
Discovering new things about him
Not getting depressed
Still quite positive in the world

And thus, this is my view of the day. Hopefully, things would continue to go better for me. Pray and hope everything shall be better and better. Oh and Nicholas, you're a jackass. I couldn't say any shit to you due to my parents being right behind me. Revenge would come when I meet you. Take care bitch if you ever do read this. :)

| Maverick |

So, the time has come, huh? Who would have expected me to come back here? Well, blame Miss Nusaiba for that. She coaxed me(Although coax is rather too harsh seeing as how I easily concede to her whims) into restarting this blog just as she is. Interestingly, it does feel good to write up again. I mean, god knows how long I haven't written. I couldn't help but enjoy writing after all. Maybe I would be able to hold onto my deal with her. Just don't expect long ass posts.

Let's sum up 2012 shall we?

The year I shall say is moderate, but it is the year of major changes for me. I believe I have changed myself for the better. Thanks to the help of so many people, I have become someone much more positive. The negativity that surrounds me previously is now lost, and it leaves with this positive outlook that even I couldn't believe. Why? It is due to the fact that I have seen my negative side has failed thoroughly to achieve in any way possible. I have lived my life being a negative guy, and it has never benefited me. The only thing it does is to encourage me to push those that care. Thus, I chose a new lease in life. It took a long while, and Nusaiba pushed to help me no matter what. Haziq stayed by knowing that he means to me a lot, and the rest never gave up on me. It felt great, knowing that my negativity was the reason why I have failed so many times. But now, it has change. I felt more.. happy with what I have now. I no longer hold onto my past as if it controls my future. I understand now, my past is the reason why I am in this present. I have to live with it, to understand my mistakes from it. No longer would I pity myself for losing it. Instead, I only see it as something I have to be better at. Truly, this new sight that I was given has engulf me in a much better way than before.

As for my love life, well let's say it isn't the best of year. Two failed relationships, exactly the same way. I don't blame them. I see now that I have failed to do my part as the guy. I should have done more than just surrender myself to what they wanted. If God willing, maybe I would actually be able to discover a girl who truly understands me. In a world like this, I used to believe I would die alone. Now, I believe there is someone. I may meet her today, tomorrow or next year. I may even have met her, only failing to recognize her. Like Ted in How I Met Your Mother, the closure I had encouraged me to open myself. I am waiting in anticipation on who would be that special woman of my life. I would always hold on to that hope that I would succeed in finding her. I rarely believe in fate, but I believe my fate hasn't let me come across her truly just yet. Love is a simple relationship made complicated by emotions. I knew I needed to right myself before getting into another one. And now, I believe I have done the former. I feel more attuned to myself. I know if I am in a relationship, problems would arise. But that is the beauty of love. If one manages to past through it, then it shows that love is worthwhile.

Knowing I have one specific stalker, I have decided to say something to her. She has been quite the light in my life, as well as most of the people we know. We may not been through too much shit, but that's the beauty of it. I remember your words for my birthday, words that were incredibly touching. You are right, and I actually hope I get to have the same treatment for my 21st. You're a wonderful girl who would definitely have the most luckiest guy once you are married. Remember, once you are, I would be by the side looking at you and nodding my head with a smile. I can't wait for the day. :)

For all the rest of you: Zakir, Haziq, Arsyad, Haider, Kong, Doreen, Paddy, there is a lot of things I can say to you guys, and the likelihood I would say it is well unlikely. But know this, you guys are an important aspect of my life, and I couldn't help but enjoy your company no matter what. I shall forever be in your debt for your friendship. For the rest, like Ammar, Mamets, Fizah, we may not be that close, but I am thankful to have come across you guys. It spices up my life. I am definitely willing to know you guys better given the chance.

And thus, for the first day of the year 2013, I leave you folks with a short poem.

From dawn to dusk, dusk to dawn;
darkness and light will always be together drawn;
There is a change in the winds, bringing about a new age;
To begin a new future, to start on a new page.

Happy New Years, folks, and may it bring more prosperity as well as goodness for your lives.

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