Lost my will, yet found a light,

I never knew how it could delight,

However I know that I couldn't cross that line,

For the loss of that would destroy my mind,

Every attempt I try to escape this pain,

Only leads my mind to retain,

That certain thought of what could've been,

And yet I can never find out nor be seen,

I laugh, trying to hide my emotions,

Never expecting to let it go into the oceans,

I can only stay here in silence,

For I know this is where I could stay conscious,

I wish deep into my heart for others happiness,

Even at the expense of my own happiness,

All I could hope is that you have a good life,

For that is what you would wish me to have to strife,

Yet living in this life wouldn't help me at all,

Cause in the end, I know I would fall,

I could rewrite this over and over again,

And in the end, the stories could never progress,

Destiny has a funny way of performing,

And sometimes the stage is always deforming,

Emotions are but a pain in my heart,

For nothing else could be this hard,

My lips are sealed for one reason,

A reason never to be revealed,

I hope everything works out for you,

Because I am not your one true.

But the day came to a close eventually, and I, Maverick, have no true regrets in 2010. I have changed, and that is something I confirm.I kept my friends closer this time, ensuring no small arguments would change. I have found those I can truly trust, and those I can always count on to be by me in troubled times. Syadibat, Winston, the two of you are some that I can call brothers, and I never really give out that title easily with what I have been through. Ups and downs we have been through together, and I know more will follow, but I shall stick by you if you need me, and nothing will change that. Djasin, Zakyruga, the two of you are different, although we aren't truly close, I still count on the two of you as closest a friend could be. Your company always fills my laughter, and happiness is always in your agendas. I thank the two of you for being around when I need someone.

Another change in me is the sense of openness I have suddenly. In NYP, I am not the man whom I once was in Secondary School. I enjoy more open friendships, and willingly make friends to those I took a liking to. My class, ME1005, is one of the best class I had so far. Like every other class, we have our moments, and we get along quite fine. NeshBoi, you are a brother that I can count on in relationships. We both know of our weakness, and we will always help one another. The rest of you are important to the class, and I don't know what could happen without each one of you.

Now, however, comes the more interesting fact. The year 2010 proved to be the year of love for me. Yes, you heard it. I have fallen for a girl, who I didn't thought would have come through. Wiwie, you know it's something that you didn't expect to happen, and neither did I. It blossomed into something beautiful, something words can never describe. I know that my heart can never be taken away from your palms, and I bow myself to your love. My undying love will always be yours till our time comes. It is funny how we came across one another. I never did thought we would be at this stage.

So, in the end, 2010 bought both great and painful memories. I have lived without a girl, and with a girl, and now, I am glad I met her. 2011, however, bought a different beginning of the year. Enjoyed an entire day out with her, and never once I regret looking into her eyes. The smile on her face brightens up my day, and the touch of her hands on mine just gives me a tingling feeling. They say love is true when you do stupid things for her. For now, I have not pass that, but I just have a good feeling that I would gladly do it, even if it means my life. Until next time, Have a happy new year, and enjoy the beginning of school.

PS, Syg, just nk pandai-pandai ask me to do something ridiculous just cause of what I say. Yes I know you. :P

Was just browsing around and found a couple of good music videos. Skillet seems to be an unknown as far as I could tell, but they are definitely a good band. The singer definitely sounds great, while the drummer has a heck of a voice. God damn.