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Tuesday, September 7, 2010 || 01:47
Today will be the day I actually have to succeed in a subject that I dislike beyond reckoning. Manufacturing Technology, a by far retarded subject(of course in my opinion) and indefinitely the most tiresome. Of course, I am being biased, since I had a teacher who is exceptionally bored and doesn't talk all that well. Everyone says it, he mumbles like a motherfucker. Yes, seriously, he doesn't even teach, he just talks to himself for a good 2 hours or 1 hour, and just goes off. And I always see him alone, not even with any other teacher. The old man must really be senile doing these things. Mechatronics Engineering is by far a confusing, not difficult, subject. Having Maths, Physics and of course Design and Technology is by far not a good choice for me, seeing that I did averagely for those three subjects. Well, maybe not Maths and Design and Technology.
But today, a test to prove I can pass the subject. It is difficult for sure, since I never did study, or I did but only gaze some of it. It is a type of subject that needs total concentration to understand every fact in it, but with someone of my attention span, I highly doubt it. I can try though, since without trying there won't be any success. But there is one thing for certain. There can be no success without failure, thus meaning I have to fail to pass my subject, or something like that.
But today, I enjoyed life outside without studying, an irony since I had exams tomorrow/today. Met up with Mister Friday, Bro Tyler, Drew, Kongster and Dodoreen. We slacked for a while, doing nothing but play cards. After a while, four out of five went home to break fast/sleep, leaving me and Friday to enjoy our dinner outside, which, I must say, was something I thoroughly found out that Friday is very very shy. Ask him to tell the story, which is by far dumb. Yes Friday, I am bringing it up until the day I forget. After that, Santos, Djasin, and Syadibat came down and the latter two was going to study, something I did plan with the last boy though it didn't came through. In the end, I didn't, and I have to bear the consequences of not making my admin card, again. Sometimes, it is just so troublesome to do this things. I gotta make it tomorrow, and go take it on Wednesday. It will be quite a busy day.
As for now, boys and girls, I have to get to studying. I need to try to get some marks at least just for the sake of showing my parents I did something. For my parents sake, I just want to do something for them. Something important. After what I have witness of my family, I just want things to go back to the way it was. I just want to see happiness radiating inside our family. Every single fight we had, every single argument that happened, I just wished everything just goes away. I rather have a fairy tale ending for my family than having a girlfriend for my own life. Everything I do, I can see it was for my family. It wasn't for me to actually find a girl of my dreams, or the perfect woman. No, it was for the benefit of my family. It has always been that. Wishing and dreaming is something that is not logical, but keeping to my words is something logical. My family is important beyond a doubt. Even if I am to spend my life alone for the rest of my life, as long as my family regain the happiness they once hold, I would be happy. My life would be complete.
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