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♣Think You Know Me?♣Year 2013
Tuesday, January 1, 2013 || 05:46
So, the time has come, huh? Who would have expected me to come back here? Well, blame Miss Nusaiba for that. She coaxed me(Although coax is rather too harsh seeing as how I easily concede to her whims) into restarting this blog just as she is. Interestingly, it does feel good to write up again. I mean, god knows how long I haven't written. I couldn't help but enjoy writing after all. Maybe I would be able to hold onto my deal with her. Just don't expect long ass posts.
Let's sum up 2012 shall we?
The year I shall say is moderate, but it is the year of major changes for me. I believe I have changed myself for the better. Thanks to the help of so many people, I have become someone much more positive. The negativity that surrounds me previously is now lost, and it leaves with this positive outlook that even I couldn't believe. Why? It is due to the fact that I have seen my negative side has failed thoroughly to achieve in any way possible. I have lived my life being a negative guy, and it has never benefited me. The only thing it does is to encourage me to push those that care. Thus, I chose a new lease in life. It took a long while, and Nusaiba pushed to help me no matter what. Haziq stayed by knowing that he means to me a lot, and the rest never gave up on me. It felt great, knowing that my negativity was the reason why I have failed so many times. But now, it has change. I felt more.. happy with what I have now. I no longer hold onto my past as if it controls my future. I understand now, my past is the reason why I am in this present. I have to live with it, to understand my mistakes from it. No longer would I pity myself for losing it. Instead, I only see it as something I have to be better at. Truly, this new sight that I was given has engulf me in a much better way than before.
As for my love life, well let's say it isn't the best of year. Two failed relationships, exactly the same way. I don't blame them. I see now that I have failed to do my part as the guy. I should have done more than just surrender myself to what they wanted. If God willing, maybe I would actually be able to discover a girl who truly understands me. In a world like this, I used to believe I would die alone. Now, I believe there is someone. I may meet her today, tomorrow or next year. I may even have met her, only failing to recognize her. Like Ted in How I Met Your Mother, the closure I had encouraged me to open myself. I am waiting in anticipation on who would be that special woman of my life. I would always hold on to that hope that I would succeed in finding her. I rarely believe in fate, but I believe my fate hasn't let me come across her truly just yet. Love is a simple relationship made complicated by emotions. I knew I needed to right myself before getting into another one. And now, I believe I have done the former. I feel more attuned to myself. I know if I am in a relationship, problems would arise. But that is the beauty of love. If one manages to past through it, then it shows that love is worthwhile.
Knowing I have one specific stalker, I have decided to say something to her. She has been quite the light in my life, as well as most of the people we know. We may not been through too much shit, but that's the beauty of it. I remember your words for my birthday, words that were incredibly touching. You are right, and I actually hope I get to have the same treatment for my 21st. You're a wonderful girl who would definitely have the most luckiest guy once you are married. Remember, once you are, I would be by the side looking at you and nodding my head with a smile. I can't wait for the day. :)
For all the rest of you: Zakir, Haziq, Arsyad, Haider, Kong, Doreen, Paddy, there is a lot of things I can say to you guys, and the likelihood I would say it is well unlikely. But know this, you guys are an important aspect of my life, and I couldn't help but enjoy your company no matter what. I shall forever be in your debt for your friendship. For the rest, like Ammar, Mamets, Fizah, we may not be that close, but I am thankful to have come across you guys. It spices up my life. I am definitely willing to know you guys better given the chance.
And thus, for the first day of the year 2013, I leave you folks with a short poem.
From dawn to dusk, dusk to dawn;
darkness and light will always be together drawn;
There is a change in the winds, bringing about a new age;
To begin a new future, to start on a new page.
Happy New Years, folks, and may it bring more prosperity as well as goodness for your lives. |
